Never

Am I setting too high expectation?
I did not do good enough?

I shall never imagine, never expect, never have hope anymore so that
I will never feeling sad, cry for smtg anymore.
I shall not forget ... I should always remember this


Hate to feel myself so pathetic
I have a misery life right now
When will it End?

痛

心很慌乱 我终于了解了哑子吃黄连有苦说不出的滋味了
好像千古罪人一般 被人在背后难听的辱骂与指责
不能为自己评理，不能为自己说话，然而只被允许默默的承受所有
心里的苦与难过又能与谁说？
就算说了辩解了也是白说 最终的结果还是一样
我又何苦去浪费口舌再解释呢？多遍的解释换来的只是伤心。
不被理解是终究不会被理解




好想好想有个人跟我说 乖 别哭 还有我理解你 你受委屈了

世上若有人理解你 愿意花时间去了解你 请珍惜
这样的人很爱你

只想说说话

很是希望可以像他一样有非凡精彩的人生

现在的我已不再奢求什么

只希望每天每天都有那么一点让我开心的事发生

想象着假如我也跟他一样 该有多好啊

至少我看他很悠哉快乐

或许这一年里真的让我太累
所曈憬的生活已破灭 剩下的只有灰烬

生活没了热度 如同行尸走肉一般的活着

不被理解 也没有要理解的意思 有何意义？

本被开启的门 也因为台风龙卷风加上寒霜风雪而上锁

想再次开启也好难 因为门被冻得拉不动了 冰天雪地又如何是好？

期待春日光芒再度来临

这是我对生命最后的一点点的期待

心

“女生总会这样... 会做如是如是举动，会有如是如是思想”

每次只要想到这里，我就会想：假如我不是女的该有多好；

假如我不是女的就不会那样子。

我现在也绝非会沦陷如斯田地。

我唯有仰头，深深的呼吸。

再对自己说：乖，会过去的。

GIla~

Mia~ Hia~ Oh lala~~ I am so damn boring!

Not feeling want to do anything normal... 

Want to do abnormal things!!!! So so emo... emo... and emo... 

Got any cure for emo?? Got ba~ shuang liao jiu back to normal liao~

Wanna shout... wanna gila for a while... wanna .... beat ppl... 

Feel so blank... so random...

Sienzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.............

Hate this kind of feeling... emptyness... 

Siam la lu~ 

Day

I saw this picture on Facebook.

I hope it was true.

So that, the bad days I had recently

will turn to my super lucky happy day!

Please...

Little Blacky ... 

Please go find your partner and paktor.

Dont disturb me anymore.

I was truly in pain.

Wei Xia Mi ?????

Wei Xia mi zhe ge sem zhe me zao gao ????? 

TT

Biao zhe yang wan  yeh la ~ 

Update

Yerrr ~ uni has succeed to block the pptv program in hostel dy...

Can't watch PPTV le .... no anime .... TT

Long time no update my blog dy.

Really busy with my FYP and also assignments.

I have one week of holiday for the coming week.

But then, our lecturer really dun wan to give us rest.

Lots of holiday works to do .....

I will still go to play for few days ~ Haha...

Accompany my family, go out v friends and gai gai v you if you free =)

and of course, try to download anime as many as i can ! Haha !!!

Hey, we need entertainment de leh !!!

Thats all for today 1st! Still need to do my literature review for FYP! Due date is SO NEAR ><

Friend

I saw it from my friend's status in fb (some of you mayb has read it b4) :

"

Boyfri(END)...
Girlfri(END)...
Bestfri(END)...

Everything Has an END Except Fam(ILY) which ILY stand for I LOVE YOU "

and then, one of my friend commented on my friend's status and said :
" That is why do not let them stay as your friend forever. Make them your family! Simple. "




I agree with it. Do you? =)

11.9.2011 ... and... 12.9.2011

11.9.2011 Sunday Sunny day

6am awake by my phone alarm ....
Is time to wake up and prepare to go back to uni...
Well, 6am was a bit too early for me since I late sleep last night and I seldom wake up at this early time during the holiday.It was hard to reject the attraction of my bed!!!! So I decided to sleep back for 10more minutes. At last, I ended up to wake up at 8am... Haha... overslept! Aiya ~ will be late to my friend's house le ...... a bit guo yi bu qu .... luckily, I was not going there by ktm. Happy you were by my side and send me over there =) We have breakfast together which I wish to do it long time ago. It was nice indeed =D

I reached my friend's there at about 11am ... one hour late ... ><
and then started my journey back to uni le ... Arh ~ Not se tuck leh ... my home, my family, ur family and YOU .... Nevermind. Time flies ~ mid sem break will reach in jx a blink of eyes. I will go back very soon !!! Haha! Excited for it! *haven start the class already thinking of the mid sem break ... typical bad student *

2pm smtg I have reached UMP. 3 hours of the journey and I slept inside the car for 3 hours too! After took the hostel room key from the officer, I bring all my luggage to my room. My first expression when I enter the room was a "Wow~" .... cz it was so messy and dirty !!!! @.@


These two pictures were took at different corner. Can you imagine how messy my room is? All the bags and boxes were mixed up together and filled up the whole room... jia lat lo ~~~ this time round need to use lots of time just to tidy up all my things... @@

I have finally done kept my things at 10pm smtg .... Tiring day ....
I m so glad that we are just like the 1st batch student. All the tables, beds and cupboards are new!!! =D The bed was so nice to sleep (elastic of the bed is absolutely good =p). I have rest well for the day =)

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12.9.2011 Monday Sunny day

Today is the 1st day of 5th semester.
I found myself have forgetten most of the friends name in UMP especially Malay student.
I remember their face and very sure they are my classmate. But I really cant recall their name.
When we 1st met after 4months holidays, they all still remember me and my name.... Haha. Really paise. Besides, I also almost forget how I lives here last time and how I arrange my time to suit the life here. Was a bit @@ when i woke up today. I forget to “zap” my bag .... and this makes me late to my first class of this semester~ luckily the lecturer was trapped by the door of the class ~ haha! xD

Har ~ today not bad =)
I really like my new bed here.
Hug pillow to sleep =D

两天

呀~

还有两天... 两天...
两天后就要暂时离开一阵子了


舍不得？
少少咯... 人有七情六欲，懂得有喜怒哀乐爱恨情。
我，也不过是一个普通人嘛。
再平凡不过的一个人。


还剩两天....
啊...

就用这两天好好的收拾下家里吧~
还要好好的收拾收拾一下自己 =D

Not Afraid

I m not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Hola if you feel that you've been down the same road

And I just can't keep living this way
so starting today, I'm breaking out of this cage
I'm standing up, Imma face my demons
I'm manning up, Imma hold my ground
I've had enough, now I'm so fed up
Time to put back my life back together right now!

~~ Eminem --- Not Afraid ~~

Today Morning

My phone was out of battery last night.
No alarm clock to wake me up this morning.
So, I sleep till wake up sendiri (睡到自然醒)
Haha~
Long time no do so dy le ~ Nice =D
When I clean up myself and sit on the sofa at living room with the tv open...
I had a feeling that is Chinese New Year !!!
Arh~ the weather here, smell, and also the environment .... really alike.
This make me lazy to go out~
Haih .... But I still have to.... who ask me promised to go out neh?
Cant make empty promise =)
Dont misunderstand. Is not dating.
I will not that lazy if it is dating =P

Aiyaya ~go open my mouth and throat later =D
Oops... I was about to late to the appointment!!!
Thats alll for this update!
Chiaozz~~

Old ppｌ，take good care of urself ya!
Drink more water, play more, eat more, rest more and miss more !
Haha! Aal lah~ is me miss you more actually! =D

(づ￣ ³￣)づ ♥

Your big day =)

Always hoping that I can do something for you at this special day.
Hope can turn a usual day become an unforgettable and memorable day.
Do I make it ?
Well, only you know the answer. *I hope is positive la =D*

Real thinking huh?
I hope you like it and be happy always, keep emo away=)
Haha.




Happy birthday !!! =)

Another raining day ^^

Its raining heavily outside there ~
My favourite weather ^^
A comfort weather to sleep ...
Dark sky with strong wind ~
And there is the music of the natural playing around~ lovely...

Sometimes rain is fierce.
It will make some cars outside there scream ~~ Haha!!
I can hear the car is screaming out of fear~
Hey, rain! Good job ! I love it xD

Arhh ~~~ shuang ^^

Besides, I missing and thinking of someone =D
Do you bring your umbrella together ? =)

PSM

Next sem on, I will become a 3rd year student at UMP.

Phew ~ sounds old....
Last year at UMP dy ~
Grhhh ... This means that I have to do Final Year Project.

FYP ... common shortform ....
Our uni called the final year project as PSM
which is stand for ----> Project Sarjana Muda.
Actually, it should be stand for ---> Project Susahkan Mahasiswa ...
LOL

I have totally forget about the project.
Planned to finish the final stage of the project before the end of the holiday..
Looks like it is mission impossible !!!

Should I change the title of the project? Lol ....

Dear

I am glad that you care so much

Appreciate it from my bottom heart

Thank you very much =)

......

Grhhh ... Cant imagine ...

How if .... and ... what if i ....

=(

Experience

The first time i know how it feels and looks like when someone faint.

Today morning when i went to one ppl's house for nian fo stuff.. i ... faint.

1st symptom of faint was sweating.
Then, cant breath properly.
Can feel the blood inside body was not flow well. *hard to reach brain*
Start to be no energy... and then ... things in front my eyes become blur and blur ...
Dark spot appear and i knew i was about to faint.
Luckily, the event there almost finish and my job was almost done.

I think i hak die them le....

Arghh... I shoudnt eat dong fen in the morning...
No good for digestion they said...



No worries. I m fine now. Hehe =)
Jx to share out tis very 1st experience. Lol.

Pengajaran: Dun eat heavy stuff in the morning. Lol

SubCreator

Have you ever heard "subcreator" this software ?

It is use to edit subtitle of videos.
Currently bek chek with this software ~
It is not stable using it with window 7 and vista .... It can support until XP
Very shit ! I need to use it for work purpose ... bunch of problems come out when i try to use it..
Diff video format come out with diff problems... @@
I install lots of plugins and uninstall lots of software because of it ...
Pity my laptop .... this few days like being torture by this software ...

grhhhh ~~~ Dun like tat la ... Pls bekerjasama ok ? TT